Once ? twice ? thrice? what is the limit????

You date
you breakup
you move on

AGAIN

You date
you breakup
you move on

AGAIN

You date
you breakup
you move on

Is that fair to yourself ?


We all have some part of ourself that we share with only someone special. You tell your hidden secrets ,your true feeling, your dream ,desires, your wishlist to that "someone special". But how do you know that the person is "THE ONE" ?

I have many friends that date,breakup move on and date again....
The funny thing is how can someone move on?

When we are in love, it should be true love. Some feeling which consumes us. Something we know is right for us. Suppose you love guy A , you tell him that you cant live without him. You tell him secrets you haven't  told anyone. What happens when you breakup and "fall in love again". You can easily live without guy A. And you continue tell your secrets to guy B. What happened to stuff which was supposed to be shared with the one ? Now you land up with multiple people knowing your secrets . How can one feel the same ? how can one tell so many guys "i love you". Aren't those emotions once in a lifetime ones?

Its like writing a diary once and then just replacing the names of the guys!! WEIRD!!!

What im trying to say is , dont rush to give it all up just to see who catches you. Fly , be independent and youll soon find someone to fly with you. Love is a special feeling and it shouldnt be something you give away like free passes.Someone should earn it and thats when u will really be IN LOVE!!!!!

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My Life.... A story to be told... A story to be heard...

Its my life!!!
A story to be told...
A story to be heard...

You will find yourself in my life , I just hope you find me in yours


All of you must have this one girl in your school/college who makes your head turn and makes you say   "ohhh I wish !" . So now you know this girl. Now turn your head and look away at the girl standing at the corner looking at the guy looking at the the girl... You got that right that's me!!!

Hi ! My name is Ayushi! This is me telling you stories of my life....

According to you what do most girls think most of the time? Career ? Studies? Friends? I don't think so!!! Most of a girl's life is spent thinking about perfect moments she wishes to come true, thinking about love. But do we get lost in those dreams so much that we forget to see what we have around us. Do we keep searching for someone/something to match our dreams. Do our expectation become so high that we forget the value of what we have in our life.

This has happened to me many a times. Like every other girl i wanted to be in love, i wanted linked to someone ruggedly handsome, smart, someone who would love me fr who i am, someone i can trust, someone who is honest and someone who loves me back. There was such a long list of specifications that i lost track of checking the points off. I got so caught up with "wanting to be in love" , that i misinterpreted a friendship.
There was this guy , a friend , my first ever college crush. Handsome ->check, Clever->check and then i lost track. Friends started teasing me,i started getting involved, started texting him a lot,would keep waiting for him to show up in class, would steal glimpses at him, and i could feel my heart race. It was supposed to right It was LOVE!!!  But in the bargain i got so caught up with my feelings,my emotions,my need to label this relationship that i forgot to check one thing, 'was is love? and more importantly 'what does he feel?'. Thereafter it as just me in this relationship which never existed. I used to go head over heals, i used to fight, i used to get angry, i used to feel jealous, i just got lost in me and my desire to have him. But for him it was nothing. He never realised what was going on. For him we were friends.
When your angry with someone and you just want to be arrogant about it and then get a little pampered by the other person. It just makes you feel special. I tries that i usually send one word replies when im angry and he never even realised that it mattered to me...

On the other hand i had another friend who realised when i was angry and would say such sweet things to get a smile on my face. Now the question is "was this love?". NO it wasn't it was a real friend who cared to get to know me. I was so desperate to fall in love that i forgot to notice the response i was getting. For me it was three years of holding onto someone who could never be mine.

We get so lost in what we want that we don't realize we already have it on a silver platter just in a different relationship. We need to wash our eyes and be appreciative of what we have instead of just wishing the same thing under a different relationship name. 

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Those unsent letters....

What you mean to me... 

For years i held onto hope...

Looked at you with eyes full of love hoping that someday you will look back at me with the same eyes
I tried to remember every word you said to be because i did not want to lose a chance of knowing you
I saw you walk away with the fear that that was the last time i get to see you and i dint want to forget any moment with you

I have always dreamt of our special moments together because dreams  are all i have in which your mine and only mine

I try to explain every feeling I have with the hope that one day you will feel the same

I love texting you because I like to remind you that I will always be there with you

I will always love you because reasons for not loving you are hard to find

Within you I lose myself , without you I find myself again wanting to be lost again

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LOVE!!!

Everyone says love changes your life, its something everyone needs, but what exactly is LOVE???

I would like to quote the lyrics of a song by Regina Spektor which best describes the feeling...

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back

When you call me

No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never

Been this way before

All you can do is try to know

Who your friends are

As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon

And follow the light

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say good bye

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning

It's just a feeling and no one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger

Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back

When they call you

No need to say good bye

You'll come back

When they call you

No need to say good bye

Love is the best feeling in the world. The ones who say " I hate love stories" eventually love 'love' the most. Its a feeling which consumes you, makes you wake up every morning with a huge smile and makes you say "I love my life". Love gives you much more than it takes. 

It takes away your need to stay alone, it gives you someone you cant live without

It takes away the 'smile for a reason' , it gives you an evergreen , pure, true smile; when something touches you emotionally you can feel it that's the time when the evergreen smile lightens up your face . And you know that the reason behind that smile is someone special

It takes away those crying eyes, and gives you a sparkle in the eyes with only tears of happiness and the need of having 'that special one' in front of those special eyes forever and ever

That feeling of having someone to hold you, wipe your tears is love
That feeling you get when you know whatever happens that special someone will always be with you and say ' everything is going to be fine ' is love
That feeling of pain in the heart when someone goes away from you is love
That feeling of wanting to spend every living moment with that special someone is love

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Whats life ???

We are born . . .

We have a family. . .
We study . . .
We work . . .
We get married . . .
We have kids . . .
We have grandchildren . . .
We die . . .

But is that it?
 Is that all what life has to offer us?
Why live when we know that someday we are going to die and ashes is all that's going to remain?

 The answer to all these questions is


Life gives you much more ...


                     It has a deeper meaning ...

When we go for job interviews they ask us 'how much experience do you have?' , but when life throws obstacles at us no one bothers asking about the experiences we have. From the day we are born every moment every incident is an experience. We are promoted from

CHILDREN  

to

TEENAGERS

 to 

ADULTS 

to 

HUSBANDS/WIVES 

to  

PARENTS

to

ASHES

There times in life when your life fits perfectly into a quote or a song or someone else's life story . . . 

By sharing such experiences , difficulties, emotions with someone always makes you feel better

This blog is all about these experiences and sharing them as talking to someone you don't know is easier!

So lets all help each other and live life filled with experiences both good and bad...

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